During my college years, I have found out that being prepared can sometimes be a disadvantage. The more I studied for an exam, the less I was actually using my brain because the stress was stronger. In case I have not studied, I had no choice but to turn on my brain and rely on my good old common sense. When I was prepared, I expected nothing less than the best possible result, but when I was unprepared, I made peace with the idea that I could always try again next time.
The circle is never ending. I am constantly preparing myself for something, but the more I keep preparing, the less I am living in the moment and relying on my instincts.
I want to rediscover my spontaneity and face unexpected situations as often as possible. I want to rely more on my skills than on some extensive, yet ultimately futile, preparations.